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When Does It End?
I’m having a hard time mentally dealing with the state of the world right now as a black woman in America.
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Good, Bad, and a Little Bit Funny
Starting a new job always comes with a mix of excitement and stress. I’ve been settling into mine, and like any new role, there are good moments, bad moments, and downright funny ones. I like to call Michael during my breaks—sometimes to vent, sometimes just to breathe and check in.…
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Standing on the Frontline
I finally got a new job. It’s not full-time hours yet, but it’s enough to cover my bills and expenses—and I’m grateful. Two months without a job felt like an eternity. The stress was heavy. There were days where I didn’t know how I was going to make it, and…
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Viral in the Vieux Carré: How New Orleans Shifted Everything
Last week, I packed my bags, kissed routine goodbye, and took a spontaneous trip to New Orleans. It was wild, funny, unpredictable—and just what I didn’t know I needed. I saw the beauty, the chaos, the color, and the spirit of the city. And somewhere in between the laughter, the…
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I Get the Villains Now
Because being ✨good✨didn’t get me a damn thing. Some people dream of being the hero. The star. The success story. Me? I just wanted to live my life doing what I loved. I wanted to sing, to write, to build something of my own—without being dragged through the mud for…
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Letters to My Past
Sometimes healing looks like silence. Other times, it looks like writing everything down just to finally let it go. This week, I did something I wasn’t sure I’d ever do. I wrote letters—to my past. To the people who hurt me, dismissed me, made me question myself. I didn’t write…
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100+ Posts Later, I’m Still Here
Sorry I didn’t post last week—life got a little loud. But today, I’m writing this with so much gratitude in my heart. I’ve officially written over 100 blog posts here. And I’ve been keeping this journal for over 7 years. There were times I stopped writing. Times I didn’t have…
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This Isn’t One of Those Pretty Posts
I’m tired. That’s the truth. And I’m not here to polish it or package it into something motivational today. I’ve been trying. I’ve been applying to jobs—I’m over 44 deep right now. And most of them haven’t even responded. The ones that did? Treated me like I was bothering them…
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The Pressure to Be Productive When You’re Healing
Some days, I wake up ready to conquer the world. Other days, I’m just proud I got out of bed. That’s where I’m at right now. I’ve launched my business. I’m looking for work. I’m building a music career. I’m pouring myself into the life I’ve always wanted to create—but…
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CEO Era Activated
You’re looking at the CEO. Yes—I started my own business. It’s something I’ve dreamed about for so long. Something I’ve journaled about, prayed over, vision boarded, researched, and worked for. And now it’s real. I did it. I’m officially a CEO! Will it take time to build? Of course. Am…
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Sumn New, Holdin’ Onto Love, 1st Country Cover💋
This week, I released my first country music cover. And to be honest? I wasn’t sure how it would turn out. But once I hit record, something felt right. It wasn’t perfect—but it was me. Real, honest, raw… and country. And you know what? It turned out pretty damn well.…
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To the Trolls: I’m Still Not Backing Down
Let me say this loud for the people in the back: I’m not here to please you. I’m not here to be your punching bag. I’m not here to disappear just because you don’t like my voice. I’ve been angry. And if I’m being honest, I’m still angry. The more…
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When Choosing Yourself Still Hurts
Last Wednesday, I quit my job. I did it for my mental health. For my peace. For my survival. And at first, I felt amazing. I knew it was the right decision. I still know it. But the truth is, as the days have passed, something unexpected happened: The numbness…
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Still Showing Up (Even When I Want to Walk Out)
Let me be honest—some days it takes everything in me just to clock in. I’ve been doing my best to keep my head up, to be professional, to protect my peace, but when you’re in an environment that refuses to see you—really see you—it starts to chip away at you.…
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Reclaiming My Voice: Healing the Inner Child Through Song
I’ve been posting more lately. More covers. More music. More of me. Putting myself out there again hasn’t been easy—but it’s been powerful. It’s been healing. Especially for the version of me that never felt fully heard. Especially for the little girl inside me who used to sing her heart…
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She’s Back And She’s Not Asking for Permission
There was a time when I thought I had finally made it. I packed my bags, moved to Los Angeles, and believed with every part of me that this was it. My big break. My moment. I was ready to step into the spotlight, live my dreams, and become everything…
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Bad Bitch in Progress: Living and Dreaming
Let me tell you something that might surprise you. At 30, I thought I’d have it all figured out by now. The dream career, the perfect balanced relationship. The perfect house, the perfect car, the perfect life. Isn’t that how it goes when you’re a kid? You think how easier…
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Bad Bitch Boundaries: How to Protect Your Peace and Energy
Let’s get one thing straight: bad bitch energy is a mindset, not a gender. Whether you’re a woman, a man, nonbinary, queer, or somewhere in between—this post is for you. If you’re tired of shrinking, tired of explaining yourself, and ready to own your power and protect your peace, welcome…
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The Bad Bitch Mindset: How to Own Your Confidence and Take Up Space
Confidence is a game-changer. The way you walk, speak, and carry yourself sets the tone for how the world treats you. But stepping into your power isn’t just about looking good—it’s about knowing you deserve to be here, taking up space unapologetically, and refusing to shrink for anyone. If you’re…
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Birthdays and Life Lessons
Hey guys, I know it’s been a while. I just wanted to let me know how I spent this past weekend. I celebrated my boyfriend’s birthday this weekend. One of our coworkers baked him cupcakes and I dressed them up a bit. We both love red velvet so we enjoyed…
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Falling In Love
Yesterday was Valentine’s Day. It was the first year in almost a decade that I actually had a partner to share it with. We enjoyed ourselves. We went to the store and got a bottle of wine, picked out what we wanted for dinner, played some music, cooked our food,…
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Update 2025
It’s been a trying couple of weeks in light of everything that’s been happening. I’ve been doing what I can to stay informed on what’s happening in the world. I can’t say I’m surprised at this election or the behavior shift I’ve witnessed at my place of work ever since.…
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MovieTalk: Wicked
So I finally saw the movie “Wicked.” When I tell you that Cynthia Erivo sang like the rent was due I mean just that. Every time it was more than just a performance she brought the words to life and you could see that she was feeling and experiencing those…
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Happy New Year!
This one is real short and sweet. I’m writing in simply to wish everyone a happy, fun, and prosperous new year. Love and blessings to you! Love, N.M
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Bring on the Holidays
It’s almost Christmas. This is my first holiday in almost a decade with a partner. I’ve never had a New Year’s Eve or Mistletoe kiss. As cheesy as it sounds I’ve always wanted to experience both of those. I’m looking forward to both of these holidays not just for those…
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Weekend Update
This weekend was pretty cool. We did some much needed holiday shopping and bought some more stuff for the house. We had such a good time looking at pricing and decorating our home together. I finally got some of the piercings I’ve been wanting. I will be getting a few…
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Life Update
Hey Guys! I just wanted to pop in and give you guys a quick life update. So I finally got help in my department and so far he is turning out to be really promising. He seems to like the job a lot and he’s a quick learner. I’ve been…
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Tree Lighting Ceremony
I went to my first tree lighting ceremony this weekend. That was pretty cool. It drew a pretty large crowd. They were serving up popcorn and hot chocolate. They had Santa and Mrs. Claus which you could get in line for and take your picture with on their sleigh and…
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MovieTalk: Pretty Little Liars
So my boyfriend and I started binge watching Pretty Little Liars. I hadn’t seen the show all the way through from the beginning since it first aired like 10 years ago. He had never seen the show. In a lot of ways it was like watching it for the first…
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30th Birthday 🎂💋💕
I celebrated my 30th birthday this weekend on the 11/8. It was pretty amazing. I woke up to 3 gifts that I told my boyfriend I wanted and to my surprise he got them for me. A pink vinyl record player and an Amy Winehouse and Fleetwood Mac record. My…
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Update : Happy Halloween 💀👻🎃
I dressed up at Hermione Granger for Halloween at work and it was awesome. I haven’t been able to celebrate Halloween much in the past. I grew up in a very religious household so I wasn’t allowed to celebrate and most of the previous years I had to work on…
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Cleansing
Beyond the shadows I emerge Again to feel a sense of emptiness Again to fill my cup again I wish I felt the peace that I constantly crave I wish I felt the mothering embrace that I’ve dreamed of since I was a child I wish I knew the wisdom…
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MOVIETALK: Lisa Frankenstein
So I went to go see Lisa Frankenstein in theaters when it first came out and it was so awesome! I loved every minute of it. It definitely had plenty of dark humor and I appreciated the fact that it was a women led film. The protagonist was female played…
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MY TRUTH.
Hey guys, I just wanted to give you a quick update on what’s been happening. I had to be honest with my job about a coworker and his sexual comments towards me and racial ones that had been going on for months. I had repeatedly talked to him about his…
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Carnival Date 🎡🎠🎟️
So I went to my first carnival with my boyfriend on Saturday and we had a good time. There was so much to do. I had no idea that Liberty even hosted Carnivals. From the fried foods, to the face painting, rides, and live music, they made sure it was…
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Corporate America, Pt. 2
I think it’s time I catch you guys up on what’s happened at work. The good news is that finally that manager that’s been causing trouble for me and my coworker has been fired. It’s been crazy though cause it took months of consistent complaints from me and my coworker…
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BEGIN AGAIN
I just started writing music again. I never thought it would be this hard. It was even harder having a conversation with my partner explaining why I haven’t played piano in years and why I haven’t felt inspired when I am a creative being. It was painful to explain how…
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Corporate America
I almost walked out on my job today… It was easier to not write my blog than to admit how bad things were getting at work. The manager had escalated things so badly HR had gotten involved and I was practically yelling at them because they weren’t listening to what…
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Back To The Jungle
Hello my lovelies, how I’ve missed you. To say that the drama at work has come to a close would be a complete lie. As it turns out someone people never grow the fuck up no matter how old they get. Some are married with kids acting like it’s high…
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NEXT CHAPTER
A good friend once told me I wasn’t built like the rest. He was right. I seem to always be met with challenges as I rise to new heights in my life. I finally meet the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. I finally get…
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ACCEPTANCE
Always leave room for the unexpected. That’s what I’m finding more or more in life. You cannot plan it no matter how hard you try and get used to people not being in your life for the long haul. It’s important to know and understand the lessons and different seasons…
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Writers Block
Hey guys. So I’ve been trying to figure out what I wanted to say for the past few weeks and it’s so unusual because I always have something to share. Usually I just don’t have the time to sit down and write because life just be life-ing so hard sometimes…
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Love Letter 💌
This is a special post. I’m not usually this vulnerable but I decided to let you guys in on my love life a little because this guy is pretty special to me. To say that this was unexpected is a huge understatement. I think that at some point I had…
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Touring KC
So last weekend was pretty action packed. We started off at Crown Center which believe it or not I have never been. We didn’t spend a lot of time there we honestly just went there to eat. I looked around a little just to see what the place was like…
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KC Underground
Hello my darlings, My apologies for my tardiness. I have been exhausted with the emotional weight of a lot that has been going on but I’ve had to shake it off and remember that I am a bad bitch and bad bitches like looking at cool shit. That being said…
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Give Me Love
So this is gonna be a rough one to talk about. It’s been weeks and just when I think I’ve finally gotten my head above the water I’m hit with more bullshit. I just feel like I’ve been judged by everyone for every decision that I’ve made lately whether it’s…
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MY FIRST COMICON
So I know I’ve been MIA, I needed some time but now I’m feeling better and I’m able to write and tell you guys about my first time going to Comicon! I was invited to go with my friend Allison and her husband and it was great to hang with…
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MINI UPDATE
I know you guys are waiting for a new blog post and it’s coming. I’ve just been hit with so much crazy shit and I just need a min to get my mind right. I have a blog that I want to write for you then I can tell you…
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Healing Your Inner Child
You know what I love about neon lights and signs? The intricate patterns and attention to detail that each craftsman took to make each one unique and eye catching. They light up the room with bold colors. They set the mood for whatever it is you are going for. They…
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ALL LOVE
This weekend was a blast! I have some really dope friends. I started the weekend off grabbing some pizza at Johnnys with my friends from work but they are definitely more than that. They are genuinely very kind people and they make me laugh til my sides hurt and they…
Nina Maroon
Welcome to my online diary. A place where I share my personal life as I follow my dreams. Make sure to follow. It’s gonna be a bumpy and hilarious ride.
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