“I, QUIT!”

Today I decided to write a letter of resignation to my work place. I am debating on how much detail I want to enclose in it because I have a lot to say. This warehouse needs a serious makeover and new leadership. It has truly been the most unprofessional two-year experience of my life. I have dealt with the most crazy of circumstances and tried to make the best out of impossible situations and now it’s time to go.

I was actually yelled at and demanded to do something by a co-worker who felt it was his responsibility because he was training to become a manager. This is the same guy that would take 4-5 restroom breaks every day and never wanted to work hard at anything. He just wants to boss everyone else around all day. I had a long conversation with my area manager after and I was really shocked and disappointed with what he said to me.

He didn’t understand why I was so upset or why I wanted to leave. He told me that he had to learn that I liked to be talked to and treated in a professional manner and that this environment doesn’t work that way. He told me that this company doesn’t do well with professionalism. He said to me in quite a blatant manner, that he compromises his professionalism to get people to do their job; he feels that he has to befriend the workers and joke around with them to get them to work hard. He said he came from a corporate setting before he started working as an area manager at the warehouse. How do you leave a corporate setting and then act this way? No matter what I said to get him to see my point of view, he tried to justify my ill-treatment and the problems that occur daily in the work place.

He told me that he heard from different people that I was causing problems for them and I told him that as long as I have worked there, every team that I’ve been on, there was always someone that would not pull their own weight and everyone expected me to pull it for them and if I didn’t there was a problem. He of course stood by his statements. I was really disgusted by his attitude and that he didn’t see anything wrong with what was happening at work but he always found time to try and criticize the hard work that I did everyday.

He listed off all the ways that I contribute and help everyone and that he doesn’t want me to quit and that I am needed here. He told me that I do my job better than most of the people that work there. Even after saying all of those things, still he made room to put me in a negative light by pointing out what other people were saying about me. The funny thing is, all everyone tries to do is compromise or do the bare minimum at this job and I have never been a slacker.

I strive to be better at everything that I put my hands to. What ever happened to having integrity and ethics? I am so sick of people choosing to do the wrong thing and expecting me to do the same and it’s all for a pay check. I so badly wanted to just do my job and go home but I stick out. That’s what he kept telling me. I stick out because of my work ethic. When I think about it, I have always stuck out because I am serious about the things that are important to me. I do my job and I do it well. He told me that I should have been the one seeking a higher position in the warehouse and in my mind I just didn’t see the point in gaining a new title and experiencing the same problems just at a different level. Sometimes it’s just not all about the money.

I want to work somewhere that acknowledges my hard-work and leadership qualities, where I can grow and learn. I never thought of myself as a leader. It took all of these bad situations for me to see that I have it in me to lead people and to set a good example on how to work with others to accomplish more together and better the work environment for everyone. I know I said it before, but it’s time for me to move on.

I stayed working at this warehouse in the hopes of finding a new job but that hasn’t been exactly easy. I have been looking and applying but it seems nearly impossible to find a good job as a writer. I am mostly getting contacted about jobs in marketing. I don’t mind marketing but I am really passionate about writing right now and that’s my priority. I want to do what I love and I don’t want to compromise that. I guess the life lesson for today is to not compromise. Don’t forget who you are and don’t change it up for anyone.

12/20/17 UPDATE:

Reading this today and thinking, “Ha, sometimes I wish I would have just quit. Smh.” When that day comes, it will look something like this…

Xo,

Nina.