TAKING A LEAP.

Hey guys!

As promised, here is my new blog post.

I’ve been wanting to go to this acting improv meet up for a long time now but I never went because it was too far away from where I used to live. It was over an hour drive but I knew after moving to a new city it would be a lot closer so I waited. The meetups are every other Monday so I’ve been trying to motivate myself to go but if you guys work in customer service full time, you know you spend 1/3 of your life talking and dealing with people so when the day is over you just wanna go home and sleep or just be alone. That was pretty much me every Monday then I would regret not going.

So I finally went to the acting improv and it was horrible experience. First off I drove almost 40 min to get there, fought through heavy traffic and crazy drivers just to make it there on time. There was crazy construction and I was like, “what is going on?” Everywhere I looked we were having to merge over or detour but I was just trying to still trying to stay positive and still hope for the best. I hit a dead spot so my gps stopped working. After I parked, I was eaten alive by mosquitoes, lol, wandering around trying to find the entrance, I finally found the place and I knocked on the door and no one responded. I rang the doorbell and I kept knocking and nothing. The crazy thing is I heard someone inside but they wouldn’t come to the door. So then I called my friend and I told him what happened and I decided to go drive back home.

He tried to make me feel better and tell me to just explore the area since I drove all that way but I just wanted to go home. I just wanted to be in my bed and do nothing. I just felt horrible like man why do I keep having these bad experiences trying to build on my craft? I can recall trying to join a band and the lead singer tried to challenge my every move and the manager wouldn’t do anything. I went to another actor’s meet up and I had an old guy trying to flirt and make sexual advances towards me the whole night so I never went back. I was ghosted by a casting director after my initial audition. It is just really hard out here to stay motivated and keep trying for your dreams when it seems like nothing is working out.

I know this isn’t my usual positive post but this is a real and honest post just letting you guys know that I’m still trying and I know I have been missing in action and it is only because I have my days when I honestly just feel so down, uninspired, or unmotivated to do anything and I always want to provide the best content and stay true to myself. I would rather not post when I’m not in my right mind frame. I’m sorry if I let any of you guys down. This has all been a learning experience and I’m not giving up. Well that’s all I have for you guys today. I jus wanted to keep you guys in the loop.

Until next time,

Xo,

Nina.