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Hey guys!

I’m so glad to be back. I missed writing to you all. I’m sorry that I have been MIA for so long. There has been so much going on I can’t even tell you. Addressing my previous blog post I had made these amazing plans to create my own website. Everything was going so well. I was so excited and the website was halfway done and I had been paying my friend to help me build it. The saying is true, you shouldn’t mix work and friends and you shouldn’t ignore feelings of discomfort from a friend pressuring you for more money for working over the hours that you originally agreed to. I’ve endured a lot of life lessons from 2019 and into 2020. Long story short my friend that I have known for over 5 years ran off with my money and blocked me from his social media and his phone. I was very hurt for a long time. I trusted him and he chose money over friendship. I distanced myself from everything because it just made me feel so depressed. All that time, energy, work, money and now it’s gone. Lesson learned. Get everything in writing and only give a partial payment as incentive for the work done. Research everything. Do you homework on people before getting into business with them. Seems simple enough right? Like common sense? It didn’t seem like I needed to go to such lengths for someone that I thought could be trusted. Sometimes it doesn’t matter how long you know someone, if they are selfish individuals they will always look out for them.

I’ve had some “issues”.. huge understatement with my current roommates and honestly it brought me to the edge of a mental break down. I was in a spiral of confusion, frustration, and depression. I felt like there was no way out and nothing that I was doing was working out and it seemed like I had nobody looking out for me. I have a few months left until the lease is up and I can’t wait. I couldn’t have gotten worse people to live with. People will present themselves in anyway they can to get what they need from you. They will lie on you, to you, and smile in your face. I’m learning to slow down and really look at situations on all sides from now on. I felt like life just kept kicking me. My health got very bad. I was in the ER back to back. I had a severe viral infection and the doctors had no idea how I contracted it. The second time I had random back spasms in my sleep and my back tightened and I could straighten it, it completely locked up. I couldn’t sit and I couldn’t lie down. It was the worse pain I had ever experienced in my life. Then the medical bills came which I’m still trying to pay off.

I’ve had friends walk out on me. One of my friends decided to treat me badly and thought I would just put up with it and I straight up told her we were done and I didn’t want her in my life. I never easily cut anyone out of my life. If I decide that you aren’t worth my time you really messed up. I’m sure I’m forgetting some things in between that happened. Oh, I went on some really horrible dates. My manager removed me from his team after promising me that with my schedule change I would still be with my team. I’ve been with this company for almost 2 years. I met with a music producer to start recording and he turned out to be an immature flake that was constantly cancelling our sessions.. another life lesson: grind in private and shine in public. I say that because I would announce these great feats then people would show their true nature so now I’m just gonna stay quiet until it actually works out. I do have some good news that hopefully does work out in a few months because I would love to share the news with you guys.

Well that’s pretty much all that I have to say. I started live streaming on this app. If you guys want to watch any of my live streams you can visit BIGO.tv/NinaMaroon and check me out. I’m planning on going live again after my hiatus. This is where my passion is; writing about my struggles and my successes. I keep holding onto the truth that something is going to change, things will get better, and I will end up where I need to be. I just have to keep grinding and keep pushing.

Until next time,

Xo,

Nina 🌹