Raging, Axe Throwing, and Hollywood

Hey guys,

Sorry for the late blog post. It’s been quite a week for me and it was hard to really encompass all the emotions that I’ve been feeling leading up this weekend. I’ve had to learn a lot of hard life lessons during these almost 2 years away from Los Angeles and debating on going back because of how expensive it is and how challenging it was the first time around.

I feel like I lost some of my confidence towards the end and I didn’t feel like I always had the support that I needed to keep me going to pursue my dreams when I would get burned out. But this is why I’m glad I have friends and the support of the new friends I’ve made; because they promised to support me when I go back to Los Angeles. I am so grateful for Luna and Allison. My girls are some of the kindest people I know and they are always willing to lend an ear or a hand to help me in any way that they can. I haven’t known them for a year and they’ve already shown me more kindness than family.

I had a panic attack on Sunday Nov 26th because my cousin texted me and began attacking me, accusing me of horrible things that were completely out of my character because she wanted me to repay her $15 for me going out the previous weekend and when I tried to reason with her and find a way to get her the money, the slander continued to the point that I was triggered and I began to remember the toxic behaviors that I had the displeasure of experiencing and it really made me question having a relationship with her and my family. I just want to personally thank my friend Kyn as well. Thanks for answering the phone, talking through everything with me and calming me down. Your friendship means so much to me.

My friends and I had thankfully already scheduled time this weekend at Rage KC which is this really cool place in Kansas City, Missouri where you pay for a session and can break glass, materials, whatever they give you. It was so therapeutic. I wrote down names and whatever else I wanted to put down to help release my stress and I felt so exhilarated. I have the video on my IG if you want to check it out: Rage KC Video.

On Sunday, I went axe throwing for the first time with my friend Allison and her husband. I definitely woke up sore the next morning but I had such a good time learning how to throw the axe and after a couple games I actually started to get pretty good. All in all things ended on a better note and I have a new perspective on life.

It’s gonna suck when I finally do leave to go back to Los Angeles because of my great friends that I met here but I’m so glad to know that we get to have new adventures that we haven’t even experienced yet.

Xo,

Nina