You know what I love about neon lights and signs? The intricate patterns and attention to detail that each craftsman took to make each one unique and eye catching. They light up the room with bold colors. They set the mood for whatever it is you are going for. They can liven up a party and subtly enhance the mood, whatever the vibe is there’s a light to match.
I’ve been a connoisseur for a while now and started collecting neon lights the last 3-4 years. I finally got led string light strips that are on my ceiling. I’ve had them for a year now and when I look at them they bring me joy and peace. Right now they are red and I remember a time when I wanted these things but could never get them and I think and smile to myself with gratitude that I am able to give myself anything that I desire now that I have ever wanted. I will never lack again. Never will I allow myself to feel like it’s too silly or childish or not important if it’s something that I truly want or desire I will have it.
What is it that your inner child has always wanted or desired? What has it always ached for and has been deprived of? What is it that you used to do as a child that you always loved that may have seemed silly or kiddish? Maybe you should do it again. I used to love to ride my bike up and down the neighborhood street. We had this huge hill that was a monster to climb up but still I would over and over again with my bike just to ride down again but I had to be super careful to watch for the cars and then I would go flying up the other corner feeling the wind in my hair. I’ll never forget the day the breaks went out and I went flying up a tree. It was both scary and kind of fun at the same time but that was the last time I rode that bike but maybe one day I will go riding again. I was promised I would get a new bike one day but that never happened. Maybe I’ll buy myself that new bike instead.
If there’s one thing that I’ve learned in my 29 years on this earth I don’t want to be angry and bitter for the rest of my life. I want to live, laugh, and love joyful, blissfully, and a little bit hard. I want to enjoy as many years that I am blessed with and I only want to do this life with people that make it pleasurable. If someone isn’t adding value to my life in some way I can really do without them. I’m on a serious healing journey like never before and I’m consciously making an effort to be in alignment with my life purpose. I thought I was going to be in California by now and it’s taken a lot longer than I thought but I’m just gonna have faith that when the timing is right I will be where I need to be and I’m just going to focus on continuing this path and preparing for it. I’ve had many life lessons along the way and I’m grateful for them and I’m gained lifelong friendships that made the lessons worth the journey.
PS – I know y’all wanna hear new music. I just moved into the apartment. So I gotta get the studio setup and purchase equipment but I’m itching to start working again so you know I’m ready to putting in work SOON my darlings! 💗
Well that’s all the time I have for you. I know I’m later than usual with my blog post but I waited until I could give you guys my best and I hope I succeeded in doing that with today’s post.
Love always.
Xo,
Nina
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