Cleansing

Beyond the shadows I emerge

Again to feel a sense of emptiness

Again to fill my cup again

I wish I felt the peace that I constantly crave

I wish I felt the mothering embrace that I’ve dreamed of since I was a child

I wish I knew the wisdom and strong hands of my father to hold me up when my legs feel too weak for me to stand

I wish I felt the protection of family to know that we would always have each other

I could wish for so many things but I know I won’t have them

So I pray for more strength in these times when I feel weak

I pray for more strength in the times that I feel most vulnerable

And I thank God in advance that even in my weakness I am strong and capable knowing that it will work out in the end even when I can’t see it.

My mental health isn’t the best today but I’m still standing and I still have a lot to be grateful for.

I can always count on me and I would bet on myself every time. I will always push through.

God gave me a loving partner to help me get through these hard moments so I will always be grateful even when life feels unfair.

Sometimes you have to cry out the sad tears first to make room for the happy ones.

Love always.

Xo,

Nina.