struggles
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Standing on the Frontline
I finally got a new job. It’s not full-time hours yet, but it’s enough to cover my bills and expenses—and I’m grateful. Two months without a job felt like an eternity. The stress was heavy. There were days where I didn’t know how I was going to make it, and…
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I Get the Villains Now
Because being ✨good✨didn’t get me a damn thing. Some people dream of being the hero. The star. The success story. Me? I just wanted to live my life doing what I loved. I wanted to sing, to write, to build something of my own—without being dragged through the mud for…
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This Isn’t One of Those Pretty Posts
I’m tired. That’s the truth. And I’m not here to polish it or package it into something motivational today. I’ve been trying. I’ve been applying to jobs—I’m over 44 deep right now. And most of them haven’t even responded. The ones that did? Treated me like I was bothering them…
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To the Trolls: I’m Still Not Backing Down
Let me say this loud for the people in the back: I’m not here to please you. I’m not here to be your punching bag. I’m not here to disappear just because you don’t like my voice. I’ve been angry. And if I’m being honest, I’m still angry. The more…
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When Choosing Yourself Still Hurts
Last Wednesday, I quit my job. I did it for my mental health. For my peace. For my survival. And at first, I felt amazing. I knew it was the right decision. I still know it. But the truth is, as the days have passed, something unexpected happened: The numbness…
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Still Showing Up (Even When I Want to Walk Out)
Let me be honest—some days it takes everything in me just to clock in. I’ve been doing my best to keep my head up, to be professional, to protect my peace, but when you’re in an environment that refuses to see you—really see you—it starts to chip away at you.…
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Update 2025
It’s been a trying couple of weeks in light of everything that’s been happening. I’ve been doing what I can to stay informed on what’s happening in the world. I can’t say I’m surprised at this election or the behavior shift I’ve witnessed at my place of work ever since.…
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Weekend Update
This weekend was pretty cool. We did some much needed holiday shopping and bought some more stuff for the house. We had such a good time looking at pricing and decorating our home together. I finally got some of the piercings I’ve been wanting. I will be getting a few…
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Cleansing
Beyond the shadows I emerge Again to feel a sense of emptiness Again to fill my cup again I wish I felt the peace that I constantly crave I wish I felt the mothering embrace that I’ve dreamed of since I was a child I wish I knew the wisdom…
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Corporate America, Pt. 2
I think it’s time I catch you guys up on what’s happened at work. The good news is that finally that manager that’s been causing trouble for me and my coworker has been fired. It’s been crazy though cause it took months of consistent complaints from me and my coworker…
The nina diaries 