UPDATE : Work. 🤷

I was finally moved out of a bad situation at work and I was trying to put it behind me and focus on doing my job and going home. It seems like no matter how hard I try there is always someone at this job trying to make things difficult for me. Its like they see me and can’t help but cause an issue to occur and it is always some how turned around on me as if I just became angry out of the blue.

My ex-boss tried to retaliate against me for being moved away from his area on Monday. He couldn’t fire me b/c I haven’t done anything unlawful or unethical so he sent in my resignation notice to the company. I never gave him formal notice and when I told the people this they tried to question me as if I did send it and forgot.

I want to write a formal complaint but I have no witnesses to the times that I was continuously bullied and shoved by him. Ive gone to my area manager about being bullied before by another co-worker in the same area and they were promoted to manager.

I got away from this manager but I still see him everyday and I don’t want him to get away with what he did in retaliation. I have to figure out what I want to do or just leave it alone. He tried to get over on me and it didn’t work. I am just so tired of the problems that this job has caused me. I have been constantly bullied, harrassed, and talked down to. I’ve gone to managers and HR before about problems that I was having in the past and nothing was done.

I honestly couldn’t write a blog post for you guys because I don’t have anything positive to post. I wrote two blog entries that are sitting in my draft folder that I refuse to post because they are super depressing. Things were starting to get better but how long before something else happens at this job?

I got advice from a friend to go to the jobs that I applied to and talk to them in person to see if I could find another job but after I was moved away from my boss I decided to put the job search on hold and try to work more hours to save money because I still want to go back to school at some point and I’m making almost $13/hr.

I just feel unsatisfied by life at this point like I can’t make my dreams and passions align with my life. It just like constant pain and irritation. I can’t remember one time in my life where I was just completely content and at peace and not stressed out and confused. I want better for my life and for myself.

I actually started writing a new song while I was at work today. I haven’t been able to write anything new in a while and the lyrics started to flow out so easily. I will record it at some point and hopefully I can share it with you guys. I know everything is going to be alright eventually but right now I just feel broken and unsure of anything at this point but I’m trying to have hope.

I guess I just need to develop a plan to stick to. I don’t know if it’s worth pursuing corporate for one manager when there are a lot of people in leadership that aren’t doing their job. I think the best thing for me to do is just to develop a plan and stick to it. Ignore all the haters and drama-seekers and move along.

Until next time, stay awesome and brush off the haters.

Xo,

Nina.